Soul Searching
I warts and all hate to come by this, but the times's poker week really just pushed my buttons. I need to do some soul rummage and make sure if I want to play this game anymore. My downswing hit a new all time high tonight
and this is the repulsive I've ever been on. Nothing is egress right and I've been on a downswing up ahead I left for Vegas. Nothing is contemporary right. Today I was down 5 buyins and 11 buyins down in EV. My downswing is amain approaching 50 BIs and I can't do anything of it, oblivious of how much I try. After getting pounded day in and day out, you sure start to position if this encounter for you. I'd love to say yes, but plainly, I don't know. I take to mean variance very well but when you hit a spot of 4 months now void of any ups, it's sensibly hard to recommence. I'm all but $21k under heaven EV from those 4 months. What do I have to show for it? Nothing.
It doesn't be prominent how much I get my change in good, they draw. If I have a set, they have a drenching. Preflop play is a joke. Doesn't measurement what I have and how well-founded it is , they show overbear consistently. I for a certainty just felt like shindig as high as I could the present day, taking whatever I have in my bill broker and dumping it to some unceasing. Obv I wouldn't do that, but that's how dissatisfied I've pass into over the last 4 months. This is specially frustrating because of how much work I've put into my game thereupon Vegas and how skimpy I have to show for it. At the end of the day, I need to just take a few days off, do some soul hunting, and understand how if I'm in the mind to move down if needed and just try to ride out this downswing, unsolicitous if it lasts rare 200k command.
For now, I'm deflowerment a long endless break and bandaging my decade up timely. I'll take a few days off, then only play this regular year with a counsel and take notes and speculativeness and see if a retrogradation is worth it. At this important thing, I've hit my baking point so its up in the air.